InAmovieOfMyLife

Drink Up or Clear Out

I can’t stop being my self.
But If I change
It could prevent me from
the one thing I fear.
 
I don’t know this thing called love
I was once told
I believe,
I can’t give this thing called love

You can’t stop me.
And I will always 
push you away 
So that I’ll never feel

You are just better off
as me being your friend than
Me being closer
What you see is what you get.

I can’t stop being my self.
But If I change
It could prevent me from 
the one thing I fear.
 
You don’t want someone 
who’s a hundred percent blind 
to love
Do You?
 
I don’t understand a cent of this
Nor should you put up with my confusion
I rather be the one on the side lines
than the one tackle to defeat. 

Mor-night

They were loyal, forgiving 
and gave every cent of faith.
One morning a week before Thanks Giving, 
his things were packed,
and said he’s sick of obligations 
and friends gives him what he wants.

Hours later his mind change.
Mins later it was like nothing happen in his eyes,
that night he disappear, 
three days later returned,
and again, 
nothing happen

Months went on,
same story,
he took them for granted
secrets kept beneath the floor boards,
fake smiles and love.

he begged forgiveness
and vowed broken promises
Not knowing what he had
anger between them
only one was the worst.

Every night the past was told,
always ends in a disaster,
one day,
they were fed up
and knew things will never change,
and the story ends as Roanoke Colony…

Wilderness

I was lightheartedness 
away from the hollowness 
out of the wilderness 
of what they call home 

roots connected and layers of secrets 
weak branches to grab a hold of 
too fragile to climb 

as for me, 
i’m just a leaf 
the moisture keeps me from crumbling 
the breeze escorting me 

I always thought leaves heads no where 
it’s possible they rest some where 
an open field, i was lightly laid 
a yell, behind me with the words “pull!” 

Just face it, this couch fits only me, and my heart doesn’t exsist.

I’m sorry,

I don’t believe in love,

this is not my heart.

(But it’s fluttering,

in my dreams you said,

those three words)

I won’t fall in love,

…I kept promising.

here we are…

(butterflies when I see you,

I’m a sucker for eyes)

and

I.

I won’t give you the key to my heart.

(this wall is tumbling down,

I think you said “I love you”

but you deny it)

But honey,

this hand, it holds someones heart.

you’re not bleeding…

(it’s me handing mine to you,

I love you)

I’ll leave it here for someone else…

(why did I take this?)

I’m so sorry

(don’t touch, only look)

stop it with the eyes.

I can’t handle seeing them in my sleep.

You can’t stop me and you keep holding.

(I can’t tell what’s reality,

But I was warped in your arms)

My hands are cold and yet warm in yours.

You don’t need to speak, and I hear it.

(eyes to eyes,

and you said it first,

I took a deep breath)

…Don’t let go, I’ll loosen them,

When you waken, it’s you and the ceiling.

I can’t believe it’s real, but there’s much more.

(butterflies when I see you,

I’m melting in your arms)

This doesn’t mean a thing.

Life is money and time.

Not racing hearts and memories.

(I said those three words back,

If I had one wish,

that wish is,

to not have a broken heart.)

…when i just want to really fall asleep in your arms,

wake up next to you,

and I know that you do.

(I will fight and run.

push any thoughts,

you could have of me being great.)

every time I slip away,

you’re right there in front of me.

I push and you slip behind me

and end up holding me.

I love you

(it scares me.

worst part is,

you know it.)

As winter came our hearts open.

Lips sew tight.
I’m always putting up a fight.
Afraid to lose anymore love ones,
memories,
possession
that could of been gone in a blink.

Afraid that they will sink.
Instead one by one,
years are days,
I grasp so tight.

My fear becomes my maze.
My treasure…
they slipped through my fingers
like quick sand.

I wake up to a trigger,
surrounded with gritty grain sand
under my feet,
ashes as my walls falls.

My heart is glass,
So I’d let no one past through
my thick brick red wall.

I’m up.
from where i was tucked.
I’m sure my life will fall again,
but it’s rebuilding itself.

The ground is becoming sturdy.
my walls are coming down.
colors are slowing brightening
from ashes to life.

Been iced in for almost a week.
No longer afraid to peek.
Summer has arrived
I’m once again revived.

You open my eyes in August
Take baby steps,
I had open your mind
in the fall you take leaps
you might miss that one stone.

As winter came our hearts closed
and have to start all over again.
One day I might be able to give my heart. 

Last Night

Last night,
I dreamt that you were going to say goodbye.
I never had those nightmares,
Until you did.

It always end the same.
You said it will be okay.
Last time you dreamt,
I broke you’re heart.
I never Imagine such thing,
Until you spoke.

It always end the same.  
(you were so lame)
I held your hand…
I won’t let go.

Last night we dreamt,
our future was all we had.
I never saw the end was near.
(your one fear)
It always end the same.
(your anger couldn’t be tame)

You never really saw what I seen.
Last night I dreamt,
this ended
(Maybe, I always knew)
Looked to my right,
there was an empty space.

It always end the same.
Now I feel free.
Last night we dreamt
We said goodbye.
We look back.
(who has your back)

It always end the same.
This was for the best.
there was the night we fought,
I was Scared how it was going to end.

It always end the same
(you said goodbye)
It always end the same
(your promise was a lie)
It always end the same
(you try to turn this on me) 
I said I knew what will Happen.
( Your fingers deceive you) 

Don’t let me go

Letting any one in is the hardest.
It’s a stainless steel door behind that wood door. 
Falling is the rarest. 
crashing and burning is the easiest.

I hate seeing others in the mirror.
The old  looks young and the young looks old.
My own eyes deceive me.
The monsters stares at me and the angels walk by me.

It’s a curse to say “don’t let me go” 
Its a fail to crush on some one. 
Its a burn to feel a tear.
This is the last time.

I think you’re the one..
I’m probably wrong. 
Is there  anyone listening.
I’m not going to worry.

After all these crushes.
I feel there ‘s not much to say.
I’ll just be me.
Hope to be excepted for just me.

I’m just going to just live my dreams.
Just leave my past behind but not forget.
I feel alive and on top of the world.

Maybe one day I can live on an ocean.
Live by a beach or a lake.
Live day by day weather alone or not.
My life is just a valley and I won’t let go.

The rain comes and goes.
I’ll just follow the stream. 
It’s never easy to change my mind.
I’ll just drive until there’s no more road.
 

The Cab - Lovesick Fool

Who are you?
You’re looking like a stranger
You were once a love and a savior
Now I’m left with nothing but your make up on my pillow
I can’t sleep
The pills they never help
Try counting sheep still hurts like hell
I can’t believe this rose has lost it’s red and it’s petals
Who put that rock in your chest won’t you tell me?
If I said I wished you the best I was lying

Wakin’ up just brings me down down
Cause every morning you are nowhere to be found nowhere to be found
And my bed is half empty not half full
I’d rather live with broken bones 
Than lay here all on my own like a lovesick fool 
Like a lovesick fool 
Like a lovesick fool 
Like a lovesick fool 
Where’d you go
You said you’d never leave me
All alone my heart is barely beating
Like a ghost you haunt me everyday that you’re gone
I’m not the same now something went missing
At best a cage it feels like a prison
Here I said until you come back home home

Who put that rock in your chest won’t you tell me?
If I said I wished you the best I was lying

Wakin’ up just brings me down down
Cause every morning you are nowhere to be found nowhere to be found
And my bed is half empty not half full
I’d rather live with broken bones 
Than lay here all on my own like a lovesick fool 
Am I a lovesick fool 
Or am I hearing no?
Am I a lovesick fool

Wakin’ up just brings me down down
Cause every morning you are nowhere to be found nowhere to be found
Wakin’ up just breaks me down down
Cause every morning you are nowhere to be found nowhere to be found
Like a lovesick fool 
Like a lovesick fool 
Like a lovesick fool

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I wrote you off, with your one hit (Tell me sorry with a straight face)

You wrote me poems,
How you never leave me,
Hurt me and hold me down,
Break me.

Did you think I will let you,
Beat me like your rag doll.
I could never accept your
Apologies.

I wrote you off.
I’m through with you.
Your sorrows means,
nothing to me.

I’m closed off 
from your world.
I take back my heart.
You will never be answered. 

Remember my promise 
You made me swear… 
for me to never leave you,
I take it back.

I wrote you off.
I’m through with you.
Your sorrows means,
nothing to me.

I don’t need you.
You seem so desperate.
Faking to be your own friend.
Glad they wash their hands of you.

Did you really think, 
I’ll fall for your lies. 
Sure, Tell me sorry,
With a straight face.

But I’m done with you.
I don’t want to hear your lies.
I burned our photos.
and your letters.I wrote you off.

I wrote you off.
I’m through with you.
Your sorrows means,
nothing to me.

I’m through with you.
Your sorrows means,
nothing to me.